I had just the topic, but as usual I lost it...

[gemfyre]

Someone make me do something stupid!!

I need to take a risk, I need to prove that I'm worth something.

I'm just so fucking scared of losing people I love and fucking myself up beyond repair.

But I WANT to do it to. I want to make people worried and excited and jealous and envious and everything dammit. And I've been trying to but when it all comes down it I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW. I also lack the bravery to do shit like that.

I'll jump out of a plane no problems (but not without a parachute!), but to me kisses are sacred and I'd be awfully reluctant to kiss another guy on the lips.

*sigh*

Sorry if I'm too sheltered and romantic, I just like things to be nice and simple, not a convoluted headfuck. I don't have time to be screwed up.

How do I unknot myself? If I could smooth out and untie my mind maybe I wouldn't always be so bloody exhausted.

I don't know what is the truth and what is my skewed perception. Why do I feel like the only one that is seen as needing to change? Does no-one else believe in self-improvement? Or are you all content to wallow in your lots and complain you never have enough, instead of doing something about it?
*frustrate*

Why can't we all change a little and meet in the middle? Why does no-one believe in compromise, I feel like I'm doing all the work and having to transform into someone else. Why is everyone else perfect and not me??

Comments

[riverstar.livejournal.com]

Bj
Do you know how mant times i have wished that i had myself as together as you do...
but alas as confident as we all may seem we are all a bunch of neurotic messes under the surface.

As for doing something stupid...look at me i do it all the time:)

[shrika.livejournal.com]

Well BJ you said you would jump out a plane. I couldn't do that.
We all have our weekness's and our strengths. It's what makes us individual. Don't be so afraid of life, time is going to keep passing us by regardless of whether we worry about what may happen or just go out there and live it.
Bugger the Nike logo of "just do it" be the logo after that "I did it" *smiles*

[leemur.livejournal.com]

I'll jump out of a plane no problems (but not without a parachute!), but to me kisses are sacred and I'd be awfully reluctant to kiss another guy on the lips.

Not meant as a reflection on you of course, but I always held the opinion that there has to be wrong with people with people who would jump out of a perfectly good plane, parachute or no parachute. Isn't their some part of their brain that says 'Uhhh...This could hurt...a lot'? And don't get me started on bungee jumpers.

On the whole, I think I would rather kiss another guy on the lips :)

Why can't we all change a little and meet in the middle? Why does no-one believe in compromise, I feel like I'm doing all the work and having to transform into someone else. Why is everyone else perfect and not me??

Everyone in life is on a journey.

It is not important to know the destination.

Some people do, and these are the unfortunate ones, for they have no view other than their destination.

The important part is not the goal, because there is always a better there and a better then.

The important part is the here and the now, because there is no better here and no better now.

[sassamifrass.livejournal.com]

Gah, it's never easy is it? And you're very right, one person should never have to comletely change themselves for others, everyone shuld comprimise if they want to hang about together.

Sorry if I'm too sheltered and romantic, I just like things to be nice and simple, not a convoluted headfuck. I don't have time to be screwed up.

I agree. and you don't have to paly that game if you don't want to. Just because some people might play that way doesn't mean you hav eto to be involved. Stick to what you really desire and feel is right... don't let wanting to inspire anything in others or fitting in make you do anything that is not 100% BJ. Because BJ is full of chewy funkacious goodness, and you don't need to mold yourself to someone else's pattern ever!

Kisses are little bits of love and soul... I don't feel they're to be spread around too lightly myself, that's my personal preference on such things ^^

you don't have to prove your worth at all - if you feel you need ot do this for your friends, that's terrible. Friends shouldn't make you fel that way! You are an incredibly valuable person with your own undeniable worth and warmth that I really enjoy seeing when I see you. Don't feel you have to comprimise yourself to prove anything, you are amazing already, you do things that some people would never contemplate. You're capable of wonders, like everyone else who realises their own potential. You've got guts and strength, and all you require is a little more confidence and you could take over the world! =D

forgive the over-enthusiastic nature of this message, but I relaly believe what I'm saying... =)