Lousy night

[gemfyre]

I had all the great plans for last night, hrm, and as usual none of that went to plan.

Started out as the "other people singing my songs" night. Graheme did Beautiful Day, but at least he admitted he was crap and wouldn't do it again. :) All you need is practise, you'll get better. ;) Sharyl then did Wanted Dead Or Alive, but he could actually do it well. Not as good as Sarah and I tho. I got to do Come As You are and If I Could (heh, finally) and also jumped up to do Slice Of Heaven with Matt and Sarah (the other one). Didn't feel like dancing either. Matt was drinking too much red wine and acting funny again, which I never like. He was having a bit of pain. Which is very sucky, but I believe there are better ways to deal with it than he does.

Then Matt went off with Sarah for a bit. And unfortunately I caught him doing... something he knows he bloody well shouldn't do and that I detest. This made me angry/sad/heartbroken/disppointed/frustrated. So we sat outside for quite a while talking/arguing/me crying/hugging etc.

More talking when we got home. Disturbing, frustrating conversation. But in the end I can't help but forgive him because we love each other. *sigh* I just wish he'd put his resources to better use than he does.

Comments

[mcowgirl.livejournal.com]

oh not again, u poor baby *huggles* men are silly.i have the same problem with my man atm. and again everytime i see you i feel dragged and beaten by what happened between us. I cannot say sorry enough and i dont think i ever will be able to.but i am sorry and if i could take it all back i would.

[gemfyre.livejournal.com]

I think you are thinking the wrong thing.

But I won't say what it was anyway.

[lotus79.livejournal.com]

Oh, I wondered where you'd gone... thought you may have had to go at short notice again.

*hugs*

I hate those sorts of conversations. Lately ours are about him rejoining the army and wanting to do dangerous things like drive tanks and defuse bombs. I'm gonna be grey before I'm thirty.

[sassamifrass.livejournal.com]

*huggles* =/

It's ok, I have a tough tummy.

[morninglord.livejournal.com]

Ah. So that's why Matt came and used me as a human punching bag. Not that I minded, he wasn't hitting very hard and I'm happy enough to do whatever I can to ease his emotions but I was wondering what the hell happened, but according to him it was "need to know" and thats fair enough.
I still don't know what happened but at least I know why he wasn't happy.