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Dec. 4th, 2002 10:44 pmThere's something severely wrong with me
I need help, I WANT help, but whenever anyone tries to help me I push it away or ignore it or think it's all superficial and meaningless and that no-one really understands what I'm going through or really wants to help because they don't keep trying, or at least that's the impression I get.
What the hell is wrong with me!!!
I need help, I WANT help, but whenever anyone tries to help me I push it away or ignore it or think it's all superficial and meaningless and that no-one really understands what I'm going through or really wants to help because they don't keep trying, or at least that's the impression I get.
What the hell is wrong with me!!!
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Date: 2002-12-04 06:53 am (UTC)Knowing you need help is very good. Many people don't realize it, or just aren't truthful with themselves that they do need it.
Admitting you need help and wanting that help are two more very big steps!
It is accepting that help that is often the hardest thing to do. When you are ready, real help that you are comfortable with that doesn't seem fake and meaningless will come.
Just give it time.
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Date: 2002-12-04 11:43 pm (UTC)You have the same problem as everyone else.
Your human.
There are those that experience little emotion in life. They never truly feel pain, but they never really real joy either. And they can never feel love.
Then there are those that feel too much.
Everyone is on an emotional rollercoaster ride. Some pople never reach great heights, but never reach great lows either. Others can go from high to low in an instant. Everybody envies the other at some or another.
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I'm sorry I haven't been able to meet you at all this week BJ, what with all the things I've been doing keeping me out of free-timeness with which to come and see you. I really would like to get together some time.. as soon as I write out th elist of stuff that I've agreed to go to for the next few weeks, I'l let you know when I'm free... partially to trade, but mainly because I'd really like to talk to you and give you hugs. I hope you feel better tomorrow.