Chalk & Cheese

[gemfyre]

It's so weird

There is Kat and there is me, and we are absolute chalk and cheese, we have completely different sets of ideals and life experiences.

Yet you love us both (albeit in different ways).

I still demand the position of most important tho!!

And what the heck is wrong with me being a selfish bitch like that?? Sure, friends are vital and we all need them, but I want to be the one, not just the one you come back to at the end of the day.

I've said this before haven't I?? I just feel like it never sinks in to anyone. I throw my all into loving you, I just want the same in return. If that makes me a jealous bitch then so be it. Don't mean to scare you but you are the most important person in my life (eep, that almost scares me even maybe).

Why does asserting myself and pepping up my self esteem make me sound like a self-centered bitch?? I hate sounding like that, but I think I hate more being made to feel like dirt and just some instrument.


She
She screams in silence
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
Wait
Ing for a sign
To smash the silence with the brick of self-control

Are you locked up in a world that's been planned out for you?
Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?
Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you

She
Just figured out
That all her doubts were someone else's point of view
Wait
Ing for a sign
To smash the silence with the brick of self-control

Are you locked up in a world that's been planned out for you?
Are you feeling like a social tool without a use?
Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you


*cyber squishes and angels and kisses to be redeemed in full when I see you next* I don't get how you don't like it sometimes *shrugs*. So who is the confused one? *shrugs again*

I love you anyway.

Comments

[ric-the-dratini.livejournal.com]

I can understand why you feel insecure and I see your pain. I am sure things will look up if you have the right attitude and speak your feelings.