Who's out there???

[gemfyre]

I want you to post anything that you want.

Anything.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.

Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Go hard ladies and gents. :)

Comments

[ranchlamb.livejournal.com]

umm i have poor study skills and i'm failing my speach communication class...

[(Anonymous)]

I love two people. And it's spliting me apart.

[(Anonymous)]

I hate people.

Well I guess not all people, just the people that are in my life right now. They all suck.

[(Anonymous)]

Once there was a man who could have anything he wanted, anything he might desire would appear before him. All of his wishes were granted. But this man was not very happy, he existed listlessly drifting through his hedonistic wonderland completely unfufilled.

One day he was strolling through his pleasure garden with an exotic beverage in his hand when he encountered something unexpected something that he had not ordained. Sitting on a lilly-pad in a small pond was a tiny girl with butterfly wings. The man was entranced by the sight of this fairy and immediately wanted to posses her. A moment later a gold and ivory cage formed around the fairy.

The fairy just sighed softly and then started humming a tune completely unimpressed or unworried by her imprisonment. Soon there after the man became a little worried at the fairy's serenity and contentment.

After a time the man asked the fairy "Why aren't you cowered, why do you sit so? Do you have some fairy magic to escape my cage? You are trapped inside that pretty cage and will remain so until I deem it otherwise, does this not concern you?". The fairy smiled briefly before replying "I am unconcerned because I know you will let me go shortly". The man was takn back for in his mind there was no way he was releasing this new treasure and so he said to the fairy "Oh fairy how ignorant you are, I do not release such a treasure as yourself you will stay there forever. Why would you think I would release you?".

The fairy studied the man briefly taking in his opulance before replying, "You have everything, anything you wish is yours but you are not happy, you are not contempt. You take no pleasure from it all and I know why." The man was amused by this and replied "Oh fairy what jest, why pray tell would I take no pleasure from all this luxury?"

The fairy stood up straight and stared the man in the eye as she spoke "Because you have not earned it, it takes no effort from you to aquire anything, so you can take no satisfaction from your opulance because it cost you nothing. The earning of a treasure is where men derive the pleasure of possession but to you there is no toil and no effort so there is no challenge in your life. Nothing to strive for. Without a challenge or a purpose you are nothing and without these you can take no pleasure in anything. Thou art an empty man."

The man was so struck by the fairy's words that he fell to his knees and started to weep. "You are right oh wise fairy, what can I do?" he cried to the fairy.

The fairy pondered this briefly before answering "You must give yourself a purpose, you need to toil and work towards a goal and then you will be happy. Your gift that gives you all you can imagine is more of a curse than a blessing. Perhaps your first goal should be to find a way to trade your gift for a measure of happiness."

"Thank you fairy, it shall be as you say" The man replied with a sudden fervor. He immediately released the fairy and left his gardens.

The man spent the rest of his life searching for a way to lose his gift. The journey and the search kept the man busy and he was content for all his days. His search was fruitless until one day towards the end of his life the man found that he no longer wanted anything but an end to his gift and so it came to be. The man found his peace and the pleasure of earning.

[gemfyre.livejournal.com]

That's a neat story, I was actually thinking about something last night and found myself using it as an analogy.

[(Anonymous)]

You did ask for honesty, so here it is.

This post of yours froma couple days back:
"All this time I have been waiting for someone to come along and just understand precisely what I mean when I post a certain lyric. It hasn't happened yet, I'm wondering if it ever will..."

came off as rather egotistical.

That is all.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm incredibly mixed up. I have next to no job, and have been totally dateless for four years. I have an incredible amount of baggage weighing me down, despite herculean attempts on my part to be rid of as much of it as possible. Things need to change, I need to be able to support myself, I need to be rid of the baggage and fear and I have no fuckin CLUE how.

[gcgirl18.livejournal.com]

I dropped out of college for the time being. I have terrible math skills. I can't even pass a *pre-algebra* class, and my grammar is horrid...and I hardly have any friends...and sometimes I chew and swallow my nails.

[gcgirl18.livejournal.com]

*ack...forgot to post as anonymous*

[(Anonymous)]

I've only ever loved one person, and that was many years ago. He broke my heart worse than you could possibly imagine. I know everyone always thinks that their experience was unique and the worst ever, even though millions of others have had the same thing happen to them. But this really was different. This was not something that happens all the time and that they have advice about in girlie magazines. It had nothing to do with cheating, backstabbing, or someone deciding you'd gotten too fat and ugly over the years. I honestly believe that no one else could possibly know how this feels, and I sincerely hope no one else ever does. >.<

I don't think I'll ever really be over him. I've dated people since then, trying to get over him, but it hasn't worked. I've felt nothing with any of the other guys and I'm afraid I will never feel love again.

"It's better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all..." Bull-fuckin-SHIT.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm a girl. And I want to know what it feels like to kiss a girl. Really kiss one. The only person I've ever kissed is my boyfriend. In fact, I'd like to try kissing a whole bunch of people and compare. I have a few in mind.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sure there are plenty of girls around who *would* kiss you. You just have to find them. So get out there girl! Is your bf your first lover? I understand the urge to see what else is out there. A lot of people have it. Make sure you go and look at the world before you get deeper and deeper into a committed relationship that you might not want.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm terrified my mother will disown me the day she discovers the truth about what I've become.

[(Anonymous)]

Having no real emotional bonds to my family, my opinion on this subject may be a bit skewed from the majority of humanity. With the disclaimer out the way...

Tell her. Not because you can, but because you are afraid to.

People should accept you for who you are, and what you've become. You have the right to choose who is part of your life.

[(Anonymous)]

I admire the way you have grown in confidence over the last few years.

I think you can better than Matt. And I think moving in with him is a bad idea.

[(Anonymous)]

I have a few things...
1. If my mother knew I was Bisexual I'd be disowned
2. I have cheated on my current long time lover, but only in the first 2 months.
3. I am in love with another man and dream about him
4. I wonder at times if I love my current
5. I have suicidal desires and I am suffering with depression
6. I used to be a nymphomaniac but recently i've been scared to have sex.
7. I wish my life was different
8. I have no close friends to confess this too.

Thanks for the Idea Belinda, it really lets you air off how you feel

Confessions...

[(Anonymous)]

I had a good friend once. She was there when I most needed her, even though it was a stressful time for her. I feel like a shit for not being there when she needed ME. And now I feel worse because I feel like I played on her attraction to me all this time, and when the bubble was finally burst, and her love was confessed, all I could do was console her and tell her she'd find someone someday. Sometimes I'm not sure if I did the right thing. Now there is a distance between us that is breaking my heart.

[(Anonymous)]

There was a girl.

Through drunken chance I discovered I liked her, but I passed it off as a mere crush. I worked up the courage to ask her out, but things didn't really pan out.

On the very day I started dating another girl, I realised how much I liked the first girl. But I was new to all this.

We were close, for a while. I think. I am not good at relationships (both in the friends and bf/gf sense) but I knew I liked her. I always assumed the feelings weren't mutual.

Sometime later, on the very day I broke up with my then gf, she came over. We talked till it was late and she ended up staying in my bed. Nothing happened, but she acted strangely the next morning. Not long after she became involved with somebody else.

Even now, many years later, I wonder if I had missed out on someone wonderful, and in doing so, hurt her.

[(Anonymous)]

i like cheese. but it makes my tummy hurt to eat it. but that doesn't stop me. yay for cheese.

[jet-ski.livejournal.com]

does it make you fart?

[(Anonymous)]

Im totally in love with the one person i can never have
they know i know
but that changes nothing

and the fact that noone ever notices...
sometimes i could fucking kill myself and noone would notice

[(Anonymous)]

Sometimes I think that *nobody* likes me at all because I'm just a horrible person. That they are only nice and friendly to me to be polite and "not start something", but secretly wish I'd go away and stop annoying them.

And how can I ever know if this is true, or just me imagining things? I can't.

[(Anonymous)]

I worry that if I'm not happy and bouncy and upbeat all the time, people will just shunt me aside. And it's hard to be fluffy and cheery when you feel the darkness closing in.

[rodcub.livejournal.com]

I'm falling in love, but I dare not tell them as I'm afraid.

[(Anonymous)]

Sometimes when im alone at night and i hate it
i sit and cry in the darkness and think about what i have done abnd wonder why anyone bothers with me at all
im a lost cause
i know it
i cut myself to remember that i bleed.

and the stangest thing of all is as much as i have sex i dont enjoy it. I get no pleasure at all from it

[gemfyre.livejournal.com]

Why do you do something you don't enjoy?

If you believe you are a lost cause then you are. You have to have a bit of faith in yourself before you can appreciate the faith others have in you.

[(Anonymous)]

I fear that I will always want those I can't have

I have an ex who I still love but doesn't feel the same for me anymore and it hurts
I have a long running crush on someone but their longtime boyfriend is one of my better friends and if anything happened to us it would destroy him and most likely her as well as has almost happened before.

I am currently crying as I write this, pent up emotions coupled with alcohol are toying with me.

I'm a wreck.

[(Anonymous)]

I miss my friends. I mean realistically they were pulling me down in life, and making me upset all the time. But they were my closest friends too, besides my fiancee. Now, I have him, but it is so hard to trust all new people to have a real close friend. It scares me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so prideful and stubborn, but I was tired of getting walked on my entire life, so I took a stand. And when I took a stand, I dropped them as my friends. It has been almost two years now, and sometimes I really do miss them. And sometimes, I can't stand myself for missing then because I remember how they made me feel. But I am also one of those people that can never hate someone totally, which is why I get walked on. Thank godness for my fiance. I also am starting to become close to a come of people, of course they just live so except for talking to them online, it isn't really that much of a friendship.
Signed,
In need of a new best friend.

[(Anonymous)]

I have frequently read your LJ and wondered just what attraction My Little Pony could possibly hold for someone who otherwise comes across as pretty smart!

[(Anonymous)]

Haha, it's funny how many people make that mistake. I'm another "really smart" person who likes MLPs. It has nothing to do with intelligence level; in fact, all of my online friends are MLP collectors and borderline brilliant. It's got a lot more to do with a love of fantasy, a fondness for childhood, and a fascination with things that sparkle.

[(Anonymous)]

i'm tired of hearing how i need to be an example for others. i'm tired of "thinking" i'm doing the right thing and have it back fire on me. i'm tired of trying. i'm tired of being the one that has to "rise to the top". i want to be the one at the bottom, that says all the hateful things and does all the dirty deeds. i want to quit thinking about "in the long run" and live for the moment. no - scratch that - i'm tired of living.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not totally useless - I can be used as a bad example!

[(Anonymous)]

Is there anybody...... out there?

To everybody who has posted here, I will admit that I've at one time or another considered situations you are all in. I'm never one to be in such situations but I consider every possibility of everything that has, will or could possibly happen.

To you all, I offer you but one thing.

...a hammer.

[gemfyre.livejournal.com]

Your D*A*A*S reference gives you away! :p