Shower thoughts

[gemfyre]

 Me at various times throughout the years around neurodivergent folks.

"I totally sympathise/empathise with you because my brain does the same dumb things."

But at the same time my un/under-diagnosed ass is like

"Why do YOU get to use it as an excuse/reason for things?  Why are YOU allowed to be open about it when I feel like I have to mask mask mask.  I mean, I don't even feel like I can be open about it with you, someone with the same afflictions as me, because I haven't been diagnosed so maybe I'm just pretending??"

You could replace neurodivergent with queer/non-hetero/non-monogamous/non-allosexual/non-alloromantic and masking with being subtly in the closet.

Comments

[moonvoice]

Ugh yesssss, and honestly even my 'somewhat but not fully diagnosed ass' still often feels like I have to mask because that shit dies so hard, but it's *really really* hard when you've been masking all your life, for decades, and the cost of getting diagnosed is stupid and criminal, and support is rare, and the waitlists are awful, etc.

(And also yes to the particular pain of being queer as fuck, and ace, and poly and a bunch of other stuff but being with the kind of partner that makes everyone automatically label you as 'cishet and definitely having a ton of sex.' *sad high fives* I hope it gets better, and honestly, you're 100% allowed to be as bitter and mad and cynical as you want about it).