gemfyre | I really should write more

I mean, I desperately need to a see a therapist but $$$$. Which is part of what I need to talk to a therapist about. UGH

Instead, I'm probably going to start semaglutide. Scumbags at HBF don't cover it because "too many people are claiming it". OMG, isn't that why we pay for private health insurance, to cover stuff we'll actually use. Insurance is just sanctioned, semi-compulsory gambling, the house always wins and everyone is screwed.

Anyway yeah, my weight keeps creeping up and up and up and I just don't have the energy and pain tolerance for stuff. I was just knocked back from survey work at a mine site because my BMI was too high - which is a shitty rule, especially as I'm not using their weight limited equipment to work IN a mine. But anyway, I was kind of looking forward to coming home anyway because I just HURT. I've had to choose a chore to complete in the evening because anything else is just too much, I can't stand up, it just hurts and it sucks.

If I can lose weight, I'll be able to move and breathe more easily. There will be weight off my scrapy arthritic knees so that should mean less pain. I won't have to worry so much if I go on a long walk what it's gonna be like limping back. Maybe I'll even be able to dance again? Maybe I shouldn't get my hopes up.

Of course there's a possibility that I get horrendous side effects or it just doesn't work. But the statistics are on my side, and it is a drug that you can just stop with no adverse effects (apart from losing the appetite suppressant effects).

Wish me luck I guess.