Well, it's that day....
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gemfyreWell this time last year S-11 happened and Ansett collapsed, taking $600 of my hard earned money with it.
14/9/01
It's a human revenge mentality. I'm not having a go at males here, but it is certainly more prevalent in men, from the biological viewpoint it is because of hormones and what the males of a species are intended to do. But anyways. I was distraught enough to hear that after a shark attack off a nearby beach killed a man the first thing authorities did was went out and killed the first Great White they found (a protected species no less), as they figured human eye for an eye 'justice' would work on the animal kingdom.
This situation is cause for a lot more frustration. If we kill whoever is responsible, some other madperson will see them as a martyr and just follow them, and if we do nothing they will keep hitting the western world (and their own world). I don't know, perhaps all the sane world should pull together and just make everything bigger and better to show the terrorists that they are achieving nothing. ooh it's frustrating me right now (I don't suffer chronic depression, I'm sure it's chronic frustration - at EVERYTHING). When you can't REASON with a person and just taking them out of the picture won't help either. It's utter helplessness, *makes annoyed frustrated erky sound*. See, I can't even explain it properly, I don't have the words.
As for how people are feeling. Everyone has the right to feel however the hell they feel. I admit I was making jokes all along, many Australians do, it's a good coping mechanism. Some of those jokes were utterly tasteless but sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying. I've almost been in tears a few times, at uni the day after an American exchange student came up the front of the lecture theatre before the Cell Biol lecture, wearing his US flag tie and choked out a request for a minutes silence, he was almost in tears and it made me bleary eyed. Yesterday it was multi-cultural day and some woman was singing Amazing Grace and I would have burst into tears had I not been at uni. I know eventually it will all get to me and I'll break down. My computer had to be formatted due to a virus, I lost a HEAP of stuff and now it seems the problem may be back!! About a week ago there was news of the airline I had a flight booked on was going into bankruptcy and now it has and I don't know if I'm going to lose my $600 or not and our planned summer holiday now looks down the drain. And of course the events of Tuesday. I've been walking around in a daze.
Watching it I couldn't help thinking of Mt St. Helens and the Frisco quake, thinking if only it was, it would be so much better for people to die to mother nature than to some bunch of lunatics. I thought how well executed it was, and simple and weirdly beautiful, the way the buildings fell and everything. Then they released the pics of people jumping/falling and stuff like that and... my heart hurts, my head hurts. I've been reading up on Nostradamus, mainly about the Challenger quatrain (now the images of Tuesday will be burned into our brains just like that disaster) and his incorrectness in his 1999 prediction, no matter how I looked at I couldn't liken it to anything like the millenium bug or something.
It's so terrible that so many people died, I keep thinking about the last moments on the planes and I shiver and think "I would be doing what the passengers on the crashed in Pittsburgh flight did". I'd like to say I'd fight till they killed me but I'll never know unless I ever find myself in that situation. I always wish some movies would come true for my life. But the wrong scenes have become reality. I just hope all the families and friends that lost loved ones can stem their desire for violent revenge and show these crazies that we are all stronger now. Everyone has a right to hate and desire revenge, but _no-one_ has the right to play out these feelings at the expense of others. Those people from the Taliban, sure they can believe whatever they want, the problem is they are affecting other people with their beliefs, both in their own country and elsewhere. I hate humans as a whole, they are most senseless, pathetic creatures. But on the personal scale, my heart's been ripped at about as much as anyone else that didn't lose any loved ones but is still in a state of utter shock.
A friend of a friend's first contact was an e-mail containing a URL of pictures of the smoke pouring down his street. Another friend e-mailed Wednesday afternoon to tell us she had been at the top of the towers 38 hours before and had flown out to Florida 24 hours before.
This is long and probably makes no sense but I had to say SOMETHING. I have a Cell Biology exam on Monday but have been in such a daze that not much study has happened. I guess I should go and try to do some...
15/9/01
I have a Cell Biol test on Monday evening (6:45 to 9:00pm, as if that ain't 'ugh' enough).
How the hell can I study?? All I want to do is watch the news and know if I'm gonna get my $600 and/or summer holiday back.
How dare some bigwig mismanaging exective take away my hard earned cash and much needed holiday! I did the right thing, I saved up, I booked in advance. I had $1000 dollars in my account before buying my ticket and now I'm strugging to keep the account over $300. Matt's holiday is also gone. His ticket was purchased by his Grandma using her Frequent Flyers which are now invalid.
It's just so UNFAIR!! Why did this whole week have to happen?? Sure I can understand that the thousands of people who died in Tuesday's tragedy is terrible and believe me my heart goes out to all those people but I'm important too and I can't AFFORD to lose $600 AND my holiday!
And as for this year. Hrmm, well we're gonna be inundated with the coverage. 38 shows this week about it apparently, that's more than you get Christmas shows around Christmas
I'd like to be watching it all with Matt, but I hafta wait till tomorrow to see him.
My conads round arrived, with a paycheque thank God. But I hafta give cheques to 3 of the places this time round and stuff which means 1. I hafta make it there somehow (Bassendeen, Cannington and Melville! *ugh*) 2. I hafta make it there when "the manager" will be there. Crap. And I hafta manage this in two weeks and juggle uni and carlessness at the same time.
Back to S-11, the US is on orange alert *yawn*. Did they really expect there'd be NO threats?? Half of them are probably hoaxes from people who get a sick kick out of panicking everyone but S-11 is gonna be the safest day from no on cuz everyone is gonna be so damn alert.
I must finish this essay today. I will lose the point and rant crap but I WILL hand in SOMETHING!
And now I'm getting hungry and wanting breakfast.
14/9/01
It's a human revenge mentality. I'm not having a go at males here, but it is certainly more prevalent in men, from the biological viewpoint it is because of hormones and what the males of a species are intended to do. But anyways. I was distraught enough to hear that after a shark attack off a nearby beach killed a man the first thing authorities did was went out and killed the first Great White they found (a protected species no less), as they figured human eye for an eye 'justice' would work on the animal kingdom.
This situation is cause for a lot more frustration. If we kill whoever is responsible, some other madperson will see them as a martyr and just follow them, and if we do nothing they will keep hitting the western world (and their own world). I don't know, perhaps all the sane world should pull together and just make everything bigger and better to show the terrorists that they are achieving nothing. ooh it's frustrating me right now (I don't suffer chronic depression, I'm sure it's chronic frustration - at EVERYTHING). When you can't REASON with a person and just taking them out of the picture won't help either. It's utter helplessness, *makes annoyed frustrated erky sound*. See, I can't even explain it properly, I don't have the words.
As for how people are feeling. Everyone has the right to feel however the hell they feel. I admit I was making jokes all along, many Australians do, it's a good coping mechanism. Some of those jokes were utterly tasteless but sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying. I've almost been in tears a few times, at uni the day after an American exchange student came up the front of the lecture theatre before the Cell Biol lecture, wearing his US flag tie and choked out a request for a minutes silence, he was almost in tears and it made me bleary eyed. Yesterday it was multi-cultural day and some woman was singing Amazing Grace and I would have burst into tears had I not been at uni. I know eventually it will all get to me and I'll break down. My computer had to be formatted due to a virus, I lost a HEAP of stuff and now it seems the problem may be back!! About a week ago there was news of the airline I had a flight booked on was going into bankruptcy and now it has and I don't know if I'm going to lose my $600 or not and our planned summer holiday now looks down the drain. And of course the events of Tuesday. I've been walking around in a daze.
Watching it I couldn't help thinking of Mt St. Helens and the Frisco quake, thinking if only it was, it would be so much better for people to die to mother nature than to some bunch of lunatics. I thought how well executed it was, and simple and weirdly beautiful, the way the buildings fell and everything. Then they released the pics of people jumping/falling and stuff like that and... my heart hurts, my head hurts. I've been reading up on Nostradamus, mainly about the Challenger quatrain (now the images of Tuesday will be burned into our brains just like that disaster) and his incorrectness in his 1999 prediction, no matter how I looked at I couldn't liken it to anything like the millenium bug or something.
It's so terrible that so many people died, I keep thinking about the last moments on the planes and I shiver and think "I would be doing what the passengers on the crashed in Pittsburgh flight did". I'd like to say I'd fight till they killed me but I'll never know unless I ever find myself in that situation. I always wish some movies would come true for my life. But the wrong scenes have become reality. I just hope all the families and friends that lost loved ones can stem their desire for violent revenge and show these crazies that we are all stronger now. Everyone has a right to hate and desire revenge, but _no-one_ has the right to play out these feelings at the expense of others. Those people from the Taliban, sure they can believe whatever they want, the problem is they are affecting other people with their beliefs, both in their own country and elsewhere. I hate humans as a whole, they are most senseless, pathetic creatures. But on the personal scale, my heart's been ripped at about as much as anyone else that didn't lose any loved ones but is still in a state of utter shock.
A friend of a friend's first contact was an e-mail containing a URL of pictures of the smoke pouring down his street. Another friend e-mailed Wednesday afternoon to tell us she had been at the top of the towers 38 hours before and had flown out to Florida 24 hours before.
This is long and probably makes no sense but I had to say SOMETHING. I have a Cell Biology exam on Monday but have been in such a daze that not much study has happened. I guess I should go and try to do some...
15/9/01
I have a Cell Biol test on Monday evening (6:45 to 9:00pm, as if that ain't 'ugh' enough).
How the hell can I study?? All I want to do is watch the news and know if I'm gonna get my $600 and/or summer holiday back.
How dare some bigwig mismanaging exective take away my hard earned cash and much needed holiday! I did the right thing, I saved up, I booked in advance. I had $1000 dollars in my account before buying my ticket and now I'm strugging to keep the account over $300. Matt's holiday is also gone. His ticket was purchased by his Grandma using her Frequent Flyers which are now invalid.
It's just so UNFAIR!! Why did this whole week have to happen?? Sure I can understand that the thousands of people who died in Tuesday's tragedy is terrible and believe me my heart goes out to all those people but I'm important too and I can't AFFORD to lose $600 AND my holiday!
And as for this year. Hrmm, well we're gonna be inundated with the coverage. 38 shows this week about it apparently, that's more than you get Christmas shows around Christmas
I'd like to be watching it all with Matt, but I hafta wait till tomorrow to see him.
My conads round arrived, with a paycheque thank God. But I hafta give cheques to 3 of the places this time round and stuff which means 1. I hafta make it there somehow (Bassendeen, Cannington and Melville! *ugh*) 2. I hafta make it there when "the manager" will be there. Crap. And I hafta manage this in two weeks and juggle uni and carlessness at the same time.
Back to S-11, the US is on orange alert *yawn*. Did they really expect there'd be NO threats?? Half of them are probably hoaxes from people who get a sick kick out of panicking everyone but S-11 is gonna be the safest day from no on cuz everyone is gonna be so damn alert.
I must finish this essay today. I will lose the point and rant crap but I WILL hand in SOMETHING!
And now I'm getting hungry and wanting breakfast.
