Where the fuck are you Matt??
Sep. 11th, 2002 10:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gemfyreI wish you would just leave a simple message.
I get so worried. Watching 9-11 stuff doesn't help.
It just goes through my mind everytime. What if something's happened?? What if I never see you again? How will I live the rest of my life?? I get sick thinking about it and a simple message could aleviate 99% of it. But you still don't do it. Why????
As for the shows I just watched.
The one on the tower's structure was interesting, as with all stuff like this, somethings were just not done right. Things that "could have been predicted" but really, you can only ever know in hindsight.
I see and think of the WTC and I don't even think of terrorists or government. I guess I keep watching the footage of the hits and the falls because, my mind can't get over that part. No matter how many times I see it still looks like something that did not happen. I never knew the towers. When I got the original "a plane has hit the World Trade Center" message from Matt I had no idea what the WTC was, where it was. I don't remember the New York skyline beforehand. Sure, I'm Australian, I have never left this country, I live in it's most isolated city. But I still feel like I should have a memory of beforehand, considering my age.
yeah, at the moment I am just cold and worried and want to know where Matt is and I want to talk to him, desperately. But I must have a shower and go to sleep or I'll never get up in the morning.
I'm feeling pretty unstable at the moment.
I get so worried. Watching 9-11 stuff doesn't help.
It just goes through my mind everytime. What if something's happened?? What if I never see you again? How will I live the rest of my life?? I get sick thinking about it and a simple message could aleviate 99% of it. But you still don't do it. Why????
As for the shows I just watched.
The one on the tower's structure was interesting, as with all stuff like this, somethings were just not done right. Things that "could have been predicted" but really, you can only ever know in hindsight.
I see and think of the WTC and I don't even think of terrorists or government. I guess I keep watching the footage of the hits and the falls because, my mind can't get over that part. No matter how many times I see it still looks like something that did not happen. I never knew the towers. When I got the original "a plane has hit the World Trade Center" message from Matt I had no idea what the WTC was, where it was. I don't remember the New York skyline beforehand. Sure, I'm Australian, I have never left this country, I live in it's most isolated city. But I still feel like I should have a memory of beforehand, considering my age.
yeah, at the moment I am just cold and worried and want to know where Matt is and I want to talk to him, desperately. But I must have a shower and go to sleep or I'll never get up in the morning.
I'm feeling pretty unstable at the moment.
